I’m feeling mighty tired lately and it isn’t all physical.
Life doesn’t always go the way you plan – usually it’s completely different. Honestly I pictured myself being in a totally different place by time I was 30. I thought I’d be making the big bucks doing things I love, maybe even being the owner of my own company. I thought I’d be doing some good things for God because I had the means.
Instead I continue to feel like I’m doomed … well, this. Entry level life. I’m pretty much career wise in the same place I was years ago. My skills have improved, but that’s it. I’m no longer playing music or doing a lot of random artwork.
I need to look at things I do have that I never took into consideration. A loving wife (well, yes I did take this in thought), two awesome kids, friends and my church family. I’ve been blessed in many ways I didn’t foresee.
So what am I complaining about?
It’s more of an observation really. It’s a three steps forward and four steps back in life that tires me out. Sucker punches.
In the end I just want to roll over and go back to sleep for a few weeks. Ignoring everything around me.
I can do that, right?